December 2009
:/
my heart beats so fast when i’m around you. my mind races when i’m not with you.
i’m in trouble.
so which is it ?
It’s not gossip if it’s the truth. I’m sick of always writing songs for you to slit your wrists to. So which is it: the boy who writes the songs or the boy who’s in them ? Who’s the girl? Is this truth or is he writing fiction ? Hand over my heart, gun to my head. I swear to God I’m through with this. I am the worst liar I know.
“Therapy is about every kid’s nightmare. When people are telling you that you...”
– Alex on the song Thereapy (via alltimelowfuckyeah) (via helgapataki)
wow. wow. wow.
wow. i don’t even know. again, i’m so full of mixed emotions.
1.) the party yesterday. my birthday party. so fricking good. there was a bit of drama, but alls well that ends well. [i think that’s the saying. right ?] but anywho. rich and nick played, and they did so great. lydia, nadia, tayla, jordin, alayna, daria, brielle, jill, morgan, katharine, jenna, deanna, michaela,...
13843.) i need to stop thinking about him, but at...
(via blogsecret)
13844.) i want to know everything about him! from...
(via blogsecret)
i'm about to explode emotions.
alright, so i’m going to explode emotions right now. i’m so confused / happy / angry / excited / nervous / sad. i know, that doesn’t make much sense, and i know they all contridict eachother. but really, i don’t even know what i’m feeling right now. i wish i could stop jumping, i wish i could stay constant and consistant. but i just keep jumping around everywhere, i...
ahh !
blogsecret posted my secret today.
13805.) So I sorta, kinda, maybe like you more...
(via blogsecret)
i hear yah.
[bold things you did in '09]
helgapataki:
obamayourmama:
1. Dyed your hair an odd color.
2. Went skinny dipping.
3. Bought something you didn’t need.
4. Snuck out of your house.
5. Became obsessed with a song no one knew.
6. Learned a song on your phone with your keypad.
7. Knitted something.
8. Ran a mile.
9. Fell in love. <——possibly.
10. Said, “like yeahh” too many times.
11. Lost your closest...
violence is one of the most interesting,...
A certain look in your eyes, when you open your eyes. Who’ll stand by your side ? So watch my eyes, watch them turn while you go change. Curtains down. When all their skill was cut, and I bled. There were forces of John Jones. I can’t make you happy. It seems all I ever do is try. You could never cut me deep enough to leave a scar. So take this gift. It’s something to save....
violence.
”My Dearest, I’ve missed you very, very much since that last night we were together, and will hold that night especially in my memories for years to come. I’ve been turning it over and over in my mind lately. I’ve read your letter through at least four times, and will probably read it more times before I’m through. I’ve been sitting here, looking at your picture and getting more homesick...
awesome = my birthday party.
hopefullyyyyy.
just because you have access to the internet,
doesn’t mean we all need or want to hear your thoughts.
pete wentz said it first.
my christmas
was so great. sosososo great.
i got a flip, a remote for my camera, lots of clothes, a jacket, and so much awesome stuff.
and i got to hang out with my awesome family all day. christmas and christmas eve were absolutly fantastic; they could not have been better.
i don’t know what i’d do without my family. i love you all more then you can ever imagine.
merry jesus day !
christmaschristmaschristmas.
hello, christmas ! i love you c:
fall out boy and blink-182.
if i were going to listen to two bands for the rest of my life, and two bands only, it would be blink-182 and fall out boy.
i wish i could re-attend the panic! at the disco / fall out boy / blink concert. best line up ever. that was litterally a once in a lifetime concert.
i will never believe again. kick drum beating in...
detox just to fucking retox.
you're the last thing i want to see underneath the...
BLINK 18f'ing2
every single blink-182 song applies to my life.
period. end of story.
great example:
Oh no it happened again, she’s cool, she’s hot, she’s my friend I tried for hours if so, you leave me no where to go She’s unstoppable, unpredictable I’m so jaded, calculated, wrong Please take me home, too late, it’s gone I bet you’re sad, this is the best time we ever...
i'm going to miss 2009 :c
WITH 2009 COMING TO AN END, 2009: In The Beginning 1. Where did you go on New Years? Home.
2. Who were you with? My mom, dad [?] and my brothah. :/ 3. Did you kiss anyone on New Years? My family, on the cheekz. 4. Did you make any resolutions? Yes, and i met it. 2009: All about YOU 1. Did you change at all this year? Yes. Yes. Yes. So much. 2. Did you dye your hair? Multiple times. 3. Did you...
13618.) Im in love with my best friend. i want to...
(via blogsecret)
i hear yah.
it's officially christmas eve !
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS !
my nose hurts.
like the inside of my nose.
ow.
the other day i talked to my papa on the phone,
just to talk. i cried during and afterwords because i love him so much. i have no idea what i’d do without him. if he passes away, i’ll be crushed. he’s one of the few things / people i’m afraid of loosing.
ahhh.
ahhh ! all these cute blonde guys !
what i'm feeling right now :
-the christmas party at morgan’s was great. i cannot wait for christmas ! i got so much nice stuff. i love<3.
-i was so happy, until i got home and checked tumblr. reading everyone’s blogsecrets reminds me of my life, my problems, my secrets, and makes me depressed.
[that reminds me. i honestly hate when people throw around the word ‘depressed.’ like, “ohhh...
13506.) I feel more safe in your arms than I ever...
(via blogsecret)
mmmm.
13548.) i don't really know anymore.
blogsecret:
sometimes i really like him. sometimes i really dislike him. i wish he’d pay more attention to me and i wish he was mine, but i know he’ll never be. this isn’t really a secret either, b/c idk how to keep those, unfortunately… i keep lying to myself about how i feel. so here it is… i just want you. every single part of you. like fuck it, i really want to be yours and you be mine....
13553.) My fear of rejection is whats keeping me...
(via blogsecret)
yes. yes. yes.